How I want to Be From This Year On
Today is New Year's Eve. At midnight tonight a new year dawns and thousands of resolutions are made. I've never been one for New Year's resolutions. The new year isn't the only opportunity for us to make goals and go after them. We have opportunities each and every day to improve ourselves, chase after our dreams, and impact the world. I don't want to wait until a special holiday to take advantage of these opportunities. By then, it might be too late.
However, this year I've come up with three words I want the people in my life to think of when they think of me. They are not goals necessarily because there is no end to these words. There is no final prize or reward. These words are a continuous way of life and thinking that I want to carry on not only through 2019 but for the rest of my life.
We just got home from a vacation in my home state of Colorado. We visited my parents and sister, extended family, and many friends. During this time, I felt a longing for Colorado I haven't felt since the first few months of moving away. I've never regretted following my husband back to his roots. I love my new home and our little homestead nestled in the farmland of Minnesota. But this trip made me realize how much I miss my friends and family. Initially I wanted to move back to Colorado and began to regret our move. Brighton and I even talked about how maybe our move to Minnesota might have been premature. After a lot of thought, I realized it wasn't premature. We made the right choice. But I made a mistake along the way.
I lost connection with those I left behind.
So from here on out I choose to be connected with the people in my life. No matter how close or how far away they may be, I want to be connected. I don't want to meet up with a friend and be blown away with all I've missed in their life because I didn't take a few minutes out of my day to give them a call or send a text to check in. Instead of being selfish with "me time", I want to take time to spend with others and connect with them on a deeper level. Good relationships require nurturing, and that's what I want to do.
After giving birth to my son a few months ago, I've found myself thinking about how parenthood is going to look like in the future. As Levi grows and develops into his own personality with his own hopes and dreams for the future I want to guide him in good directions and be a good authority figure to him. But I also want to be understanding. If he falls into trouble or struggles in school, I want to approach him from a place of understanding. I want him to be able to come to me with his problems and trust that I won't immediately become angry or frustrated with him. I want to react to my son with an understanding that he is human just like me. I've made mistakes, I've struggled, I've had feelings of rebellion. I should not expect anything different from my child. So when the inevitable happens, while I still need to take seriously the responsibility of parenting through discipline and guidance, I want it to stem from understanding what he's going through and reacting in a loving and patient way.
In everything that I do, in every relationship I have, I want to leave a positive mark. I want my conversations to be uplifting. I want my comments about people to be kind and loving. I want my attitude to be happy and fun. Life is too short to dwell on the negative. There is too much to be grateful for to trudge through my days with sadness and self pity.
One negative comment immediately brings down a room, while one positive comment can turn a person's day right around. I'd rather be remembered for being the person who lifted up others with a positive attitude rather than being the one who always drained others of their energy because of my constant negativity.
These words hold value that will last longer than a fit body or a plush bank account. By being connected, understanding, and positive I can impact not only myself but also those around me. And I choose to not wait until tomorrow when the New Year dawns to act on these words. I choose to act right here, right now.
I encourage you to think of a few words to describe how you want to be seen and remembered. Not only for 2019 but for the rest of your life. Feel free to share them with me below in the comments. Together we can add deeper value to our lives and to this world.